Tuesday, December 4, 2018

October - The Big Show!!

So as I said in my last post, the days after returning from Vegas flew by!  Before I knew it, October was here and this month is super important in my daughter's dance world.  This is the month of her yearly recital - and there is so much prep for this.  After making a mad dash the day before, to go through everything and go buy whatever was missing, we were ready for the big day!

The morning is same as usual, wake up early, have a great breakfast - we won't be eating much for the rest of the day & jump in the shower.  After the shower its makeup & hair time.

By now, baby girl tries to do some of her makeup but I still do the majority of it - I'm seriously thinking about taking a makeup artist course - well, back to Recital day.  I also have to do her hair, which is such a struggle.  She complains I pull her hair too much, the bun is too low, the bun is too high - yadayadayada.....

Finally, hair & makeup are done - now to put on the dress very carefully so no makeup gets on it & we don't mess up the hair!  I know - we should have put the dress on first but I never think of that.  I must enjoy the struggle.

Everything is on, hair is in place and now its time to load up the car and head to the theatre.  Actually, this year's recital was moved to a high school, because our beloved Park Theatre is being renovated.  It's about time!  It was an inconvenience, but that theatre really needs an overhaul - and I'm not 100% sure it is being renovated, maybe they shut down for good.  Point is this year's show was being held at a neighboring town's high school auditorium.  This worked out fine, the seats were comfortable and best of all there was parking - so it's all good!

We arrived, set up in the dressing room and began the photography session.  LOL, we moms have to take advantage of this day.  The girls are dressed up in these gorgeous dresses and they have no choice but to pose and smile.

It was finally time to begin and it all starts with a graduation, which moved fairly quick.  Then the awards for the rest of the school and then showtime!  This entire show is a mixture of all ages and dances - there is something for everyone and it's a great time!  I love, not only watching my daughter who I am so very proud of but watching all of the other students give it their all up on that stage!  There truly is so much talent there and they all performed beautifully!

10 years of this and I'm still not tired, it still excites me as much as it exhausts me!  It is all worth it to see my Baby Girl up on that stage, doing what she LOVES!

I only hope she continues this dance life, so I can enjoy many more years of this!

Saturday, December 1, 2018

A Step Back

Well, its finally December 1st and I feel its time to take a step back and give a little recap of what has been going on.  I feel like I've been in a whirlwind since returning from Vegas. 

We returned and between work and my personal life - its been non-stop.  The biggest and most emotional moment came on September 26, when I lost my maternal grandmother.  We all grew up a very close-knit family and since my parents divorced when I was 9, we moved in with my mom's parents, my grandparents.  They practically raised me.  I lived with them until I got married and moved out at the age of 19.  She cooked and cleaned for me & my sister, was the one that would wake me up every morning with a cup of warm chocolate milk so I can get ready for school.  She would leave me $2 every day so I can buy lunch.  It wasn't always great - there were hard times, more than once she thought I was crazy and needed psychiatric help because I would lock myself up in my room and blast my music.  She didn't understand the modern teenager...LOL!!

When I got married I didn't see her as much and we did grow apart.  My grandparents and mom moved to Scranton, PA with my sister and I would only see them a few times a year.  But this is something I always took for granted.  Even though I didn't visit often, I always knew she would be there - although the reality is that NO - she wouldn't always be there. 

She started suffering from dementia after a car accident she was in 4 years ago and that is when all the problems began.  A few days prior to the 26th of September, I got a message from my sister saying that my grandmother was in the hospital.  She went in for a urinary tract infection but it went septic - at this point, there was nothing more that could be done and the doctors recommended hospice.  That weekend I went up to visit and spend the day.  She wasn't awake, and they already had her on morphine for the pain.

I went to work that Monday, and by Tuesday my sister called and said that the nurse recommended for everyone to go see her as soon as possible because she didn't have much longer.  That Wednesday, I went back to PA with my hubby and kids.  We spent all day there and it got really late.  My husband couldn't miss another day of work and it was so late that I didn't want him driving back home alone, so I left with them.  An hour after we left, I got the call.  She was gone.  I was heartbroken!  I should have stayed.  That was the longest ride back home ever!! 

The following week was all a blur.  I worked, then the weekend came and I went back up to PA to be with the family.  Her service was the following week and it was beautiful & sad.  So many memories came rushing back.  Now, all we have left is that, memories of her - so many good times, laughs & tears!

I am very fortunate to have been 42 years old when I lost my first grandmother, and still am very fortunate to have my grandfather and my paternal grandparents.  They are all older and I know they won't always be there.  I now am determined to try and spend as much time as I can with them.  I want to have recent memories with them, not just old ones.

Love You Tati!
4Ever in My Heart!

7/9/1936 - 9/26/2018

October - The Big Show!!

So as I said in my last post, the days after returning from Vegas flew by!  Before I knew it, October was here and this month is super impor...